I need relationship advice! NEED MORE HELP! Help please?

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Ok guys and girls, hang in there with me, i know this is very long but bare with me and try to help me out ok? Im desperate here!





Im a sweet girl and im very loveable and have alot of love to give, sometimes too much love 8o


Ok im 19 and my boyfriend is 17... i like younger guys what can i say lol and no im not ';robbing the cradle'; lol...so anyways my boyfriend and i have been together for a lil over a year, at the beginning of our relationship i cheated on him, by dating him (D****) and other guy (M*****) at the same time :o i know that was really bad and sluttish but i didn't have sex with neither of them at that time... so about 2 months into our relationship i told M***** (the other guy) that i wanted to just be friends with him because i was starting to fall in love wit my boyfriend (D****) and i didn't want to lose my bf. i eventually told M***** the truth... he was devastated and upset...i felt guilty because i liked them both but i loved my boyfriend. After 5months of being with my boyfriend (D****) I told him about what i did and of course he was very angry with me and more importantly he was heartbroken, he was more upset that i didn't tell him sooner and that i waited so long to tell him, (your probably wondering why i waited so long to tell him, and it was because i felt like if i would have told him at the beginning, i wouldnt have him right now)...but luckily he stayed with me because he loved me and didn't want to lose me and i loved him so much... couple of months go by and we're still together but our relationship was rocky (and still is) because he didn't trust me (and i don't blame him)... he would always make hurtful jokes about what i did and would tell me ';now you see how i feel'; he would always ask me, ';why did u do it? why would you do something like that to me, especially when you know i love you? i mean why me instead of him?';





At one point he even told me ';sometimes i feel like, since you cheated on me than it wouldn't be so bad if i did the same thing to you'; : (our relationship was sour and i got tired of him making me feel even worse about me cheating not to mention how he would always bring it up at the wrong times and wouldnt let it go... i got so tired that i ended up telling him that i needed a break so we ';broke up'; (in Oct. of 2008 to be exact) Than one day out of the blue he called me and flirted with and told me he wanted me back so we got back together and we're still together till this day... he told me he has never cheated and he never will but that puzzles me because of the stuff he use to joke about... and he still brings up me cheating... i haven't talked to my boyfriend in days and i don't know what's going on... the only talking we do is through texts and there only short hellos...but my questions are... do you think he might cheat on me if he already hasn't? and since we haven't really communicated in days, do you think he might be planning to break up with me? I know what i did was wrong but that was a while back and i still feel horrible about it but Ive learned my lessons and I'm not going to do it again... everybody makes mistakes.I need relationship advice! NEED MORE HELP! Help please?
You are a young, sweet, smart girl and therefore deserve the best partner in life when you are ready for it. By then, you should know what is best and beneficiary to you and your partner through your actions, thoughts and mind.





Take every relationship seriously and committed to it. No one can enjoy a happy relationship without trust and responsibility. You know you will end up no where and will suffer eventually if you don't.





Do the right things !!! If you know anything is wrong, do not repeat it in a relationship. Do not repeat the wrongdoing to avoid further frustration, disappointment and confusion in your life.